And just like that, another month of the year is gone! This month went extra quick since it’s such a short one, AND Victoria – the state I live in – was put in another lockdown briefly due to some ongoing COVID outbreaks.
The lockdown was only for five days, but my work closed down for a little bit longer, and then I didn’t have work for a few more days after that because of the weekend, so I was stuck at home for what felt like forever and yet also made the month go by really fast – now here we are.
It’s really weird to think that earlier this month there were rules forbidding me to even leave my house, now we can have up to 30 people in our house if we want to (not that our tiny unit could fit that many, it can barely fit us! 😂). It sure has been a strange month. We’re already two months into 2021; I’m only seven months away from turning 25, which is just insane to me.
This month wasn’t as great as I had hoped it would be, to be honest, but it wasn’t awful either. We had some things change – that I’ll go onto explain soon – in our day to day life that we are still adjusting to, that got changed again, and will be changed yet AGAIN in the future, but that’s just life. I’ll stop rambling now and get onto this month’s tidbits!
TIDBITS FROM THE MONTH:
♡ Daniel started this new, full-time job on the first of this month, which was very exciting. It was quite a change adapting to a 6am-10pm sleeping schedule (for the both of us) instead of our usual 12am bedtime, then awake whenever we need to. Due to him starting so early, I get dropped off at my work sometimes a couple of hours early, so I’ve been getting a lot of reading done. That is, until he switched to working at home until further notice due to COVID and other reasons, so now we still get up early, but I don’t need to leave for work so early, so it’s even stranger being awake and at home without having anything to do 😅 but Daniel is enjoying his job, which is good. He does miss actually going into work, but he won’t be working from home forever, so that’s good.
♡ This month’s seizure tally is really good! I only had 7. I was actually just about to write how over the moon I was because I thought that was the lowest it has been in years, but it turns out I had seven back in November.. 😕 But, it’s still five less than last month, so that’s something.
♡ On the topic of seizures, my neurologist and some other people at one of the hospitals I go to have asked me if I want to sign up for a trial as it’s been almost three years now of trying medications and having no luck, and I have been on the waiting list to get the ball rolling for brain surgery and still haven’t even BEGUN to see if that is a possibility, so a trial is another option. I always said I’d be up for it, but now that I’ve been asked and they’ve told me more about it, sent me the information and a consent form, I’m not so sure about it.
This medication that I might be on (depending if I’m in the placebo group or not) has never been taken by human beings before. They have no idea what it could do. They have no idea what the side effects may be. I know taking any kind of medication is like rolling the dice with side effects, but I have taken a LOT of medications over the last three years, and a lot of the possible side effects are always the same, and at least I always get a list of what could happen. This time, they have no idea, because this medication isn’t even legal yet. I can’t just go to a chemist to get it; I have to go to the hospital every time. They have to SEE me take it to make sure I’m doing it right.
Whilst I want to be part of a trial because it is thanks to trials that they are so many medications out there now for me to try and fix my epilepsy, I also don’t know that I am ready to take a medication that could completely change my body as they have done so in the past. I’ve gained 25kg before, I’ve become quite severely depressed, all from passed medications so now they know what kind of pills give me those kind of reactions, but with a brand new pill that they don’t know how it works, who knows what could happen. So, I think I’m just going to sit out this trial and if I still haven’t found any solutions in a few years, then I might do a trial.
POSTS OF MINE FROM THIS MONTH:
IN FEBRUARY I:
♡ WATCHED: I’ve been LOVING every single episode of WandaVision that has come out! I don’t usually watch shows that come out weekly because I find it tiresome, but this one is so worth it and I’m really sad that it’s almost over. We also got Disney+ Star over here in Australia, which means we are FINALLY able to watch more than season one of Bob’s Burgers, so we are making our way through that. We’re up to season 3 at the moment. Since lockdown meant I couldn’t leave the house, I had a lot of time to binge-watch TV so I watched five seasons of How I Met Your Mother (third watch-through of mine) and four seasons of Parks and Recreation (my third watch-through of that, too). I also watched Avengers: Age of Ultron, Spider-Man: Homecoming, Far From Home, Guardians of the Galaxy, and Guardians of the Galaxy 2.
♡ READ: The Outsiders by S. E. Hinton, Essays in Love by Alain de Botton, Who Moved My Cheese? by Spencer Johnson, The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner by Stephanie Meyer, The Tattooist of Auschwitz by Heather Morris, and Humans of New York: Stories by Brandon Stanton. I also bought a heap of books, as I tend to do once I start to pick up reading again!
♡ LISTENED TO: I’ve been a light fan of Mod Sun and blackbear for a while now, but I got really into them this month and went back and listened to a lot of their older songs that I had missed in the past, as well as some of their latest songs that everyone else is obsessed with too. Right now I really love Rollercoaster and I Remember Way Too Much by Mod Sun, and there’s honestly no bad songs by blackbear. I found a lot of random songs that I really fell in love with this month, such as: 21st Century Vampire by LILHUDDY, California by girlfriends (this song really makes me want to learn how to play the drums), oops! by Yung Gravy, I Hate Boys by Christina Aguilera, Antisocial by Patient Sixty-Seven, Already Dead by Hollywood Undead and Slumber Party by Ashnikko ft. Princess Nokia.
THINGS BY OTHERS THAT I LOVE:
♡ I don’t think I’ll ever get sick of hot chocolate bombs – and these Harry Potter Golden Snitch ones are pure magic! ✨
♡ LIFE HACK: How to make regular wallpaper removable.
♡ The sweetest (and prettiest!) charcuterie board that you’ll ever see! 💕
♡ As much as candles scare the heck out of me, these DIY twisted candles are just too much fun!
♡ I love the idea of a positivity suit. Going to create mine ASAP 🌈
♡ I’ve always wondered how to make shaker cards – now I know!
Until next time,